With all the jumbled thoughts inside my head, including the constant loathing of myself for procrastinating instead of just focusing on studying for my board exams, I'm having quite a hard time trying to write this post. And it's not because I'm having a writer's block, in fact, it's the exact opposite of it. I've been having all these thoughts inside my head that I couldn't just patch up together in a more cohesive form. So I'm just gonna have to ramble my thoughts out and try to align the pieces together to make coherence.

Growing up, I always had a passion for writing, literature and all things English (the English subject, not the Great Britain kind of English). My favorite subject is actually English. I'm not saying I'm entirely good at it. I wasn't even the "Best in English" in my class back in grade school. But I loved it. In high school, I joined the school publication and I was immensely proud of myself for being a part of it. And then I found photography. It was during my second year in high school when I so badly wanted a DSLR. But it was much of a luxury for a middle-class family. I was given my very own camera when I was already in my second year in college. Now, you can see, I love two things writing and photography. Mix those two up and the best outlet for it would be this blog.

So why did I end up in the Accountancy program? As the eldest among four siblings, I had to make the practical decision in choosing my degree program for college plus my parents were already on the edge of ending their marriage at that time I was about to enter college. So my aunt came into the picture. She talked me into choosing BS Accountancy. She took the same course when she was in college. She convinced me, telling me that if I choose the course I would be able to work in whatever industry I want because every business needs an accountant. She couldn't be more right about it. It was indeed the most practical choice. Believe me, my first choice was Mass Communications, but I had to take the most pragmatic route.

Every day for four and a half years in my college life, I spent almost half of my life studying. Now, I bet your thinking I was miserable for choosing a completely different route in  my life. Surprisingly, believe me, I got surprised too by myself. I was quite happy about being an accountancy student. None of my classes helped me improved on my writing or photography skills (Well, probably except for those 3 minor English subjects that were included in the curriculum). I mean, there were projects that encouraged artistic involvement, but it wasn't the kind of thing that really enhanced my skills. Although the organization that I was in got a lot of extracurricular activities for these kinds of interests, it was quite enough for me.

But as what I said, I was still happy, and even proud of myself. Of course, I had moments when I just wish I could shift to another course (shift to Journalism or MassCom, maybe). But I couldn't and wouldn't. It took a looooooott of thinking for me to finally realize that after all these, I could still be what I want to be. And wouldn't it be a bonus if I'd become a CPA at the same time? That was the motivation I needed.

Even now, I honestly could not still believe I have survived everything. Not to humblebrag or anything, but I have not taken a single retake of any of my subjects, could you even believe that? #AmIGoalsYet? Hahaha. Someone who's got other passion, and could have easily flunked, graduated BS Accountancy.

In between those years, I have tried blogging then stopped then blogged again and then stopped (for like 6 months) and then (now) blogging again.

Currently, I am preparing for my board exams and constantly attending my review classes. I'm just waiting for May 2017 to happen really. I'm both scared and excited. Scared - because I'll be taking the board exams and the thought of I might not pass is really frightening, but I'm still being positive about it. (Have to still work on my confidence though). Excited - because the thought of me passing gives me so much pleasure.

In the end, the much bigger realization of all of these is that God has really better plans for all of us. We can make our own plans but His will always be waaaaaaaaaay better. Like 1000000000000x better. You just have to believe in Him, and give everything you're all.

I hope you find my story quite inspirational :)